Longing Heart

Today, my heart is longing for two little ones whom I have never even met. I don't know how old they are, or their gender, or even their names. How can I feel this much longing and love? I want to meet them, hold them, hug them, and care for their needs. I want to make sure they have enough food to eat and that they are safe. I want to hear the sound of their laughter. I want to be their mommy.

I wish there was something I could do to speed up the adoption process. But we are still waiting on my finger print results to be sent to our homestudy agency. Waiting, waiting. (I called last Friday to the state office and they said they logged me in on Nov. 19. Right now they are still processing the week of November 12-16, so my fingerprint results should be sent to our agency soon.  Andrew's results have already been processed and sent to our agency.)

This whole process will be full of waiting. I know it will be hard. I pray God continues this growing love for our children in my heart, even though it hurts a little to love these unmet little ones who will be our children.

As I drive to work and back today, I will listen to a CD called Bulgarian Phrases for Children. A wonderful resource for adopting parents that I found. I will practice saying, "I love you, are you hungry?, go to sleep little chick" and 133 other phrases in Bulgarian.  And as I practice, I will dream of the day when two little ones will come home to me.